My Fairest Adieu.

My words remain unspoken
while your voice is bittersweet.
But I do not dare open my mouth
because then I may chance becoming free.

To ensure my heart is working
I need it to feel a slight spark or two
but with this lack of affection you deliver
it's so tempting to say my fairest adieu.

I find it more & more troublesome to convey this dissatisfaction
and even harder to choke back my tears.
But I always disregard the pain that I'm feeling
because breaking is one of my most critical of fears.

I'm beginning to believe this hurt is my addiction
because I have no intention of letting you go.
But your ignorance is becoming so overpowering,
& my voice is nothing but an echo.

Your redundant mistake.

I'm nothing but your redundant mistake.
The one who's love you refuse to partake.
You wrap and tangle me into your insufficient lies,
as I try so hard to hold back my heavy tears
while we exchange our repetitive good-byes.
I must say that it is so difficult when my heart is contradicting my mind,
and it is so capable of convincing me that you are the best I'll ever find.
I was taught from the beginning that there is no existence of true love,
and that it was so impossible and ignorant to even be written of.
But like these hammers and strings,
you are all that makes sense to me.
And just like my hammers and strings,
I refuse to make a redundant mistake.
So I watch you escape from my thoughts; my mind; my memory,
But I refuse to let you go from my heart; my song; my most blissful of a melody.

Without you.

Without you here, a feeling of emptiness mocks me.
Without you here, every single thing seems to go hazy.
Without you here, I can't seem to properly collect my thoughts.
Without you here is when I realize that you're all that I've got.

I want you here, so desperately with every little tick on the clock.
I need you here, before my heart completely shuts itself with a lock.

Without you here, just breathing seems to make myself ache.
& Without you here, my smile is beginning to make itself more and more fake.

Your Only Decoy.

You're so full of self-confidence that nobody can destroy.
But I would be the first to know that, since I was nothing but their only decoy.
You endeavored to take my heart and pump my blood for me,
because you knew that you could give me the finest of a frenzy.
Now you leave here again, and I feel like nothing but a mistake.
Because these haunted memories you left with me are the memories that will never break.
But now that you're gone my eyes can see for miles and miles.
And now that you're gone, my heart will finally get what it most desires...
Love.

Pounding in my chest.

This pounding in my chest
is something that never seems to rest.
This passion of blood flows throughout my body
because just the thought of you always seems to overwhelm me.
With a flash your crooked smile, I suddenly know that you care
And an existence without you is something I cannot even think to bear.
The sound of your voice is one of my favorite harmonies,
And your touch is the completion to my most complex of melodies.
The shield I put between everyone I know is something that you can break
because your simple absence seems to make every part of me ache.
And I feel it is so necessary for me to tell you that
This pounding in my chest
is something that I just refuse to let rest.